what to do know?

So in watching the Oprah show I am wanting to make changes. hair cut. A job that gives me meaning or volunteering so that it gives meaning. I want to do more reading with my boys and for myself. I want to be able to talk to my boys. Figure out why it is that whenever I want to go tell Thomas I love him that he just pisses me off. I need to realize that he is his own person I can't make him be the perfect child that I want. I need to be happy with who he is becoming. I need to remember that he does still need to hear it.

I also got some very good news today. I had an MRI last week and have been waiting for the results. I got them today. My lesions have decreased in size. I still did have new ones but they were very small. I am ecstatic.

I would like to figure out what my design is where I am going to fit in. I am excited to figure it out and watch my family figure it out as well. I want to be able to give them the right tools to succeed and do what they want to do.